What an amazingly descriptive phrase, filled with raw emotion. For me it hits on a variety of feelings. Mind blowing, disappointment, sadness, despair, and finally humorous in a good way. Let me explain, wait, let me get some coffee in me, o poop 
don’t have any and I may need to drive to Wawa in a COLD van ( insert flaming exploitive 
) I’ll be back to finish , but Thanks for sharing all that HighLater is Now !
..... when we tense 
up and dig our heels in, that’s when it’s time to open Mr. Awareness brain, he or she or is it The tends to be more calm assertive, potentially wrangling in The thinking section of the brain, that sometimes get caught up in to many detailed....... I think The coffee has kicked in 
..... Hey Highup My friend, Jim really pushed some buttons back then and you did what most of us would have done, loose it. It takes two to tango, 
and it’s not easy ! It takes discipline, patience, practice, failure and the determination to get back up and keep trying. I believe you did all that, so sometimes a decision to switch partners needs to be made......... Youz guyz tho, Philly accent ) Danced some amazing Tango’s from the start, as the # 2 Member of TFP 
And good friend, behind the scenes managing TFP together and I bet it was filled with lots of laughter too. No more preaching my friend, you have my full understanding, that is if I’m even deserving to give it up. God knows I’ve lost it many times, poor Pine tree, got beaten on a regular basis......Again thanks for sharing all that, you have a great way of writing and good memory of details. I hope you feel better now getting that off your chest. 
I'll reply to this one first because I haven't read part dux.
CJ mentioned how wonderful it was to read my writings......Later is Now !
thanks for sharing all that stuff High, Randy. I came along appx. 4 years into TFP so I’m not going to Monday morning quarterback your conclusions of Jim’s ‘ Con Artist intent ‘ but what I would like to shine a light on is why do us humans, me Included, feel such a strong desire to Judge. If we judge less we’ll have more time to actually live. I’m posing a question, do we like it ? Or is it unpleasant? I’m assuming the
expitive e-mail was not fun and probably raised the blood pressure. Let’s ask ourselves, is there another way to walk this Earth more gentle.? ........I saw a guy, in Jim, who probably thought to himself, I have COPD ( 1 year or 10 years to live, it doesn’t matter. How can I be of service to this industry before My Segway battery’s run out and at that time FCI Mags on line forum was having issues. 
Now Jim had a good head on his shoulders, even after abusing it with pot and alcohol ( those topics where always fun to read, made me almost feel bad for not being a stoner 
) ....Anyhow, so much I want to share, but my finger can’t keep up. Darn I just lost about 5 sentences darn 👁 
.... in conclusion, Dobby said “ it doesn’t matter how good my work is against your work, it only matters that my work today is better than my work yesterday ! I miss those mission statements some TFP members had at the bottom of each post. Respectfully MSLI.thanks for sharing all that stuff High, Randy. I came along appx. 4 years into TFP so I’m not going to Monday morning quarterback your conclusions of Jim’s ‘ Con Artist intent ‘ but what I would like to shine a light on is why do us humans, me Included, feel such a strong desire to Judge. If we judge less we’ll have more time to actually live. I’m posing a question, do we like it ? Or is it unpleasant? I’m assuming the
. It would be nice to go back and read a few of Jim’s last posts. Rusty, can you share the link to that forum. Thx !
can't find it anymore
. When I started a new topic, he started moving them to a different location where he would get more advertising. I asked him a number of times to stop moving my topics..... I mean I'd get up in the morning and my topic would be gone and I'd have to search around to find it he didn't even tell me where he put it. After numerous times of him doing this is obvious he was screwing with me and I said adios. I'm not a bad guy, Nick wasn't a bad guy, Rusty isn't a bad guy, and Jerry was a great guy.
Just enjoy the humorous part. Had I stayed the situation wouldn't have gotten better. If I was a distraction for Jim then it was best that I left anyway, so I did. Don't let my comments bother you too much because I know most people liked Jim. To a very large degree, I did too and like I had mentioned before his site brought many of us together and we would never have known each other without him so like I said before. I'm thankful to him for that.
. I can relate to that High, he moved some of my posts and I ocassionaly felt slightly alienated by him or other members, that I no longer was wanted.....But I decided “ I like this internet playground “ let me toughen up my resolve and maybe go with the Jimbo / other Members flow
because ! you know, we bring our own unique set of strengths and weaknesses to the ball field of life..........However I can see how your dynamic was different, being a Founding Member, one of many loyal subjects who helped mold the site. This is something to be proud of no matter the ending outcome 
Mines the same.I was also part of Jims site from early on, In fact, I was his Global Moderator for a while, but my ideals didn't align with his, so I bowed out. What I really miss is knowing who is who from the old site. I know who Floorist, Highup and of course, Jon and Daris were, maybe CJ. Pretty much lost on everyone else. Just started a new job, with the first company I worked for when I got my contractors license in 1985. Sort of a overall crew leader guy, have 22 crews to ride herd on, help out with technical issues, problem resolution and training where called for. Shop is a 5 minute drive from home, and I get a company truck to drive, and , I get to take it home, which will let me not worry about having anything stolen. 42 years installing, still not ready to hang it up just yet, still enjoy the trade and the people I meet.
Maybe we could have a page where everybody reveals their old screen names.
Very interesting and I’ve been giving that some thought. (O-Boy the thinking mind over-doing it ) So ! Is it possible he fell victim to his own rules ? Rules equals fine line between control and controlled. It’s actually what we just went through with the Pandemic, but let me not go there. Back on Jim, his intentions where good by creating rules, - no personal attacks- no religious or political topics. Etc etc. I actually never went and read the rules list
sorry Jim, he probable put lots of time into it. Anyhow, do I think he had a power tripping personality ? No ! But let’s face it, us humans wake up with different moods each day. This variable makes our thinking change daily. I often noticed political and religious comments that he allowed. Maybe that day he was feeling open and accepting to ideas ? Then other times, like the topic ‘ In Memory of a TFP members Dog ‘ for some reason, and I’ll touch on that latter, Jim felt incredibly strong that we TFP members should not have turned that topic into our own personal tribute to our own lost pets. That we should have just given our condolences........I must admit, Jim got that one wrong and most of us agreed. Now I’ll attempt to give him our understanding. For some reason this issue hit him hard, he dug his heels in, and I’m guessing did not listen to members reasoning, Why ?.....If I had to guess, maybe it was a combination of things. Growing tired physically, with the bull shit of having copd. Also tired of ‘ The Management process of his forum. keeping conversations flowing, Moving topics, creating new ones, and managing staff members and there concerns. But the big one maybe could have been a combination of him loosing a pet and the forum problem of members Hijacking posts. We all did this and most times the topic would get redirected and maybe lost. Maybe his ‘ Power Trip ‘ and over reaction came from pent up stress ? Clouding the reality, that we where actually on topic. 
I wish I would have emailed him privately to discuss this.......It was a sad day for Jim and TFP ..... Life and rules caught up on a public forum. In closing, Jim came to bat every day with Zest and confidence that he could hit a home run every time, but life throws curve balls ( low and down and high and up ) and those darn pitches are difficult to hit out of the park. RIP Jimbo !
